[StBernard] Getting over it?

[Westley Annis]

Laurie,

Trust in God and his word.. All things work together for good for those that
love the Lord.  Talk to Him and let him know how you feel and let him know
what your hearts desire is.  He is in the miracle business.

Judy Hedrick

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	>Jer,
	>
	>I share your feelings of dispare and I have heard all the same "get
over it"
	>
	>type of phrases you are talking about. Even from people as close as
Metaire
	>
	>(that happened to not get much damage) do not understand us or what
we are
	>going through. I will never get over this completely. It is like a
death
	>in the family. It is something I will learn to live with, but never
get
	>over. I will miss my home as I miss my deseased loved ones,
forever. It
	>will never be the same, I will never be the same, just as life is
not the
	>same when someone dies. St. Bernard will come back, but not the
same place
	>or people I was raised with. I think we all knew people that died.
I did.
	>
	>I feel St. Bernard died too, at least the St. Bernard I knew,
loved, felt
	>safe, secure, and familiar in. Another generation will have that,
but not
	>us. I remember Junior saying in the begining that we had to come
back and
	>get "closure". I don't believe in closure. Closure is like it is
over. It
	>
	>will never be over for us that call St. Bernard home. We will just
learn to
	>
	>live and cope with it and incorporate it into our being. We will
still think
	>
	>of our old beloved St. Bernard from time to time and cry. We will
want it
	>back. Everyday I want it back. We are anrgy that this happened to
us. So
	>many feelings. I remember before this happened I always questioned
God. Why
	>
	>had he given me such a good life? Why did I deserve this great
life? Why
	>wasn't I born in Iraq or Africa where there was war and famine. Why
did
	>people in those countries have such a hard life and we had it so
good? Why
	>are innocent children starving and having their limbs cut off in
Africa? I
	>thanked God for the life he had given me, but questioned why. I
didn't do
	>anything so special. The people with war torn lives didn't do
anything bad
	>to deseve that. My conclusion now is that God does not make things
happen,
	>but lets things happen. He wants us to learn from it and he was
saving this
	>
	>for me. I have come to believe that no one leads a charmed life.
You never
	>
	>know what someone else is going through just looking at them from
the
	>outside. Keep going, Jer, and trust that God will give us strength
and he
	>knows what he is doing.
	>
	>Laurie